kick!

...i've been losing steam with how the way i do my job lately...i used to push myself really hard to meet whatever expectations my boss/client have of me...but now, i think that drive is fading and i'm afraid by the next couple of weeks it will all be gone

...i used to be excited in attending meetings/calibrations (coz i can get to talk a lot) but lately i've been dreading to attend one...i used to enjoy the time being locked in the confines of that corner office...i've mastered the art of multi-tasking of taking pictures of myself and that of talking to clients at the same time



...but now, i just HATE doing any of it..

...i need something to motivate myself and to find back that purpose of why i always try to be the best...if i can't find that motivation then i guess, i need someone to kick me hard in the ass to get back to my old self

...this is sooo not right :(

charity

...did some charity work earlier this morning at a home for sick and malnourished kids somewhere in Cebu...getting there was almost a horror ride - it's like the slumps of India magnified ten folds and i don't want to start talking about the details of the sight...it's just bad, no, horrible is the correct word

...i'm sure anyone who can see those kids will have their heart broken...they all looked so fragile and all you want to do is to take care of them and take them out of the place they're in...but that's not always the case...i can't imagine how these parents go on having unprotected sex and not thinking about the consequences



...oh well, enough of my rants...i'm just thankful that i'm blessed...sure, i have enough set of my own problems but that's not even half of what those kids have now and will have in the future...i'm just hoping that something bright will be ahead of them :)

175k book drive

...well, one thing interesting happened this week and it involved one thing i really like - charity work...it's something i don't get to do that often so whenever i get the chance i always make sure to make the most out of it...

...our company had a book drive campaign few weeks back and since all of my books were not kid appropriate (i'd be shocked if there's a kid out there who can tolerate few chapters of Wicked hehehe) i opted to just have some cash taken out from my salary and used it to purchase books for kids (i saw Alamat ng Lamok as one of the purchased titles bwhaahha! like WTF?!!! who would even bother knowing the mythical origin of mosquitos - oh well! hehehe)



...we went to i think the most remotely located school in existence like it was placed right smack in the middle of the jungle and i was wondering where those kids came from since i can't see much houses in the area...weird...just plain weird





...anyway, on top of delivering the books, we spent almost an hour reading some books to the kids from grade 1 to 5....it was something i haven't done before so the experience was really A+ :)



...if you take out the travel time and the effort you have to do to get there, i think i'd like to do it again :)