kick!

...i've been losing steam with how the way i do my job lately...i used to push myself really hard to meet whatever expectations my boss/client have of me...but now, i think that drive is fading and i'm afraid by the next couple of weeks it will all be gone

...i used to be excited in attending meetings/calibrations (coz i can get to talk a lot) but lately i've been dreading to attend one...i used to enjoy the time being locked in the confines of that corner office...i've mastered the art of multi-tasking of taking pictures of myself and that of talking to clients at the same time



...but now, i just HATE doing any of it..

...i need something to motivate myself and to find back that purpose of why i always try to be the best...if i can't find that motivation then i guess, i need someone to kick me hard in the ass to get back to my old self

...this is sooo not right :(

woosa!

...i wonder why some people just can't get it right...

...this is my mantra for this week that will keep me from lashing out

"not everyone can be as informed and as experienced as you are and it's not always their fault. so cut people some slack when they frustrate you with their questions. they are just working at their own pace and abilities and they are doing their best...you can't fault them if their best isn't good enough for you"

...i need more patience until the week ends

...if it's the same shit by next week then i'll go ballistic

the letter

....i finally got the letter to make everything official yet it wasn't something i expected...i wanted to bitch and moan about it but i know if i'll do it won't change anything...(this is work stuff by the way) - i can't spill more details...

...oh well..life's a bitch...and then you die

...i'll be back in the blogging world real soon, probbly next week...as soon as i get my hands on that shiny Macbook...i kissed Dell M1330 goodbye...i no longer love it