hopefully when i get back, ill be better

...i couldn't find my sleeping pills today, guess someone hid it so i can stop taking 'em...been wanting to just hibernate or either kill my time watching too much tv just to get my mind off thinkin bout someone...

...i'm never good at hiding my feelings and i think i'll always end up as a bad actor if i'll be in showbiz...i wanted to cry till 4am in the morning like Gwen does in her song but the last pill i took knocked me off just when i'm about to let 'em pour out...



...i'm going to file an emergency leave later at work, this feeling has been affecting me last week for the last 3 days...i'm just staring blankly at the computer screen, my agents can't seem to bother me at all up to the point that i don't even want to talk to them...and this is all unfair...

...i'll be going home - much sooner than what i've planned...hopefully when i get back, ill be better